‘But I Am Broken, 12 Hours Isn’t Enough, To Fit In All The Existing Crimes I’ve Yet To Investigate’ | Anon
I wondered whether you could post this anonymously…
After a hard shift trying to hold up the thin blue line, I was compelled to get my feelings down, and I think it speaks volumes…
I take off my boots
They’re scuffed and dull
There used to be a time where they’d shine, and I’d wear them with pride. But now I kick them off with tears in my eyes and pain in my chest. Another day where you’ve tried to do your best.
Your numbers are small, but the incidents are many
We barely have time to “spend a penny.”
12 hours no food, too many half cups of tea
The things that the public cannot see
They think we are strong, unbreakable
These superhumans who see and do the unthinkable
But I am broken, 12 hours isn’t enough, to fit in all the existing crimes I’ve yet to investigate. Because Emergencies don’t wait for your current crimes, you attend another domestic, a stabbing, a death there is no time.
Yet here young officer take all of this pressure it’s for you to hold and it’s getting heavier. Do not show weakness, do not show fear, do not show the outside what’s going in here.
Keep smiling, keep fighting, keep pushing what’s right, take the punches, the threats, the verbals, the strife.
Keep doing your best, but it’s never enough. But don’t show it, don’t say it just keep holding it up.
Go home to your family who are already mad you are late, take some more pressure, some more pain, some more weight.
The weight becomes heavy its too much to hold, when will they listen, when will they be told. We are humans and hated and loved in equal measure. I’m doing a job where I no longer take pleasure.
I want to do the job for which I am paid, not be the teacher, the social worker, the mental health aid. I want to fight crime and get justice where deserved, but the resources are low, and it’s becoming absurd.
But its more than a job its a calling in life, and we keep going through this trouble and strife.
So tomorrow I’ll wake up and put on my boots, I’ll leave my home and lock the door whilst heavily anticipating what the day has in store.
Because although a young officer, with pressure so heavy, I’m here for you to protect the many. But soon we will all be broken don’t you see and who will be there to protect you and me.
Not us, not them, not anyone if the protectors are broken then the protection is gone.
While you are here, please consider becoming a ’supporter’ of our page and Facebook Groups!
By becoming a much-valued supporter, you will get:
> access to a supporter-only Facebook group, where we hold regular LiveStreams events
> EXCLUSIVE supporter-only content which is shared on our main page
> discounts off of the products in our store
> a ‘Supporters Badge’ – so when we see your comments on our posts, we’ll always respond to you!
> PLUS you will get to shape the future of our page and groups, by playing an active part in what we do going forward!
And you get all this, for just over £3 per month!
Your £3 means that we can put more time and resources into bringing you even better content and videos!
So if you do choose to support us, then thank you!
We will look forward to welcoming you into our supporter-only group!